Is It Bedtime Yet?

Hello World,

Today is an okay day I guess. I woke up this morning depressed for no reason (everyone tells me there has to be a reason but I slept fine so I dont know), then I went to work and on my cart was a razor blade; so I was staring at the blade being like this must be a sign telling me I can give in and cut. However, I didn't!  I kept the blade with me for my four hours of my shift and managed to ignore it. Also, I did not take the blade home, where it is currently located is unknown, this girl I work with had it last. Then after all that fun working I had to go to school afterwards. Class wasnt actually that bad we just fooled around with our student email accounts. But right now I have a killer headache and just want to lay on floor and sleep my days away. I don't want to slip back into my depression, I need to stay positive and kick butt at school but its hard.

-jlod

Who Knows

So I worked today and there was stuff today and it was fun. Then on the way home a wave of depression came over me. I dont know why but I wanted to hurt myself just for the heck of it. I cannot go back down that road! But now its much later in the day and I managed to get through it. I'm just waiting for my dad to get home and then me and him are going to spend some quality time together watching tv. Oh and crazy news I cut my bangs for the first time in my life! I got my haircut the other day and the lady did a horrible job. So I decided to attempt to fix my bangs, I don't know if they look good or bad. I dont think they look bad but they arent perfect but they'll grow out.

-jlo