Done!

So I've been trying to be nice about telling my friends she needs help. She's not listening at all and its really upsetting me. She says she doesnt need help and that she's fine. Except I see her going through some of the things I was going through when I was at my worst. So I know help could do wonders for her. Anyways last night I decided I was going to talk less to this friend and here I am today and I've spoken a little to her but not as mush as usual. This girl has been my best friend for 10 years so its difficult not talking to her but I want to stand my ground. However, since I've caved in and spoken to her a little I decided I'm just going to lay everything out in the open and if she's pissed at me then I don't care because I'm pissed at her! The worst part is how this conversation turns out will decide our friendship. I don't want someone who can't take my advice and I dont need someone that is down in the dumps when I'm working my way back up again. I'm not saying my friends can't have bad days but she is more than having a bad day, she's been through a lot and she needs someone she can talk to.

jlo

Guess not....

I've been meaning to blog about this for a couple days now. Right now I'm hurting so nows a good time to talk about it. When you graduate High School everyone says you and your friends will go seperate ways. I said I wouldn't let that happen. There was this one girl I became friends with my freshmen year of high school. We had at least one class together I'm pretty sure every year so we grew close. The kids at school would ask if we were lesbians because we would hold hands and walk around. Truth is I loved her....like a friend, I could tell her anything. I thought she was my best friend. Then we graduated and she went to a university and I stayed close to home at a community college. We talked every once in awhile the first year and we tried to see each other when she was home. Then the second year she was away we became distant. I didn't want to accept it. I tried to talk to her and see her whenever she came home. However, this whole summer I only saw her once and that was at the end of the summer. I tried talking to this friend on facebook today and I didnt even get a response. So I guess we have just gone our seperate ways and it hurts so bad because I dont even know why. She failed me a lot as a friend I guess. I had to much faith in her I guess and so now it hurts to she im nothing to her. And if this friend happens to stumble upon this and read it and know its about her then I want to say I still love you, I think I always will but I know now that friends do become strangers eventually.....

jlo

Ahhhh Boys Have Cooties!!!

Okay, so I should fill you all in on whats been going down. I did my review for my raise on Tuesday and I'm pretty sure I got the raise and then Wednesday I worked and after work I got pulled into a meeting for a write-up and got suspended for too many lates and absences. So today was my first day of suspension out of 3 days. I had therapy and I feel it went really well. I wish I could go to therapy next week too but I am broke as can be. Then I did something for a friend and I think I did the right thing but I dont know. And just now I came home from hanging with all my friends we watched Jennifers Body and it was hysterical. One of the guys that was watching the movie with all of us has a secret crush on me I believe. We talked about how everything is going on and when I left he told me to text him sometime so we can get together...so to me that sounds like "hey I want to get to know you better" but who knows. Well I think Im going to bed now. I'm tired.

-jlo